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About two years ago my dad fell off our roof. he was just becoming a believer. He was on the porch roof part of our house which was about 15 ft. and he was power washing the side of our house.
My cousin, my niece and I were in my bedroom and my dad was right outside my window. As soon as I heard him fall I ran to the window and looked out. I threw everything that was in my hands to the floor and ran downstairs and outside to him. My cousin and niece got my sister to help. My mom had just left, so I called her. Somebody else called 9-11. I had forgotten my other sister was home, so I got her. By that time my mom was home and the ambulance had gotten there. He only broke his femur and busted his lip. Through all of it he grew closer to God.
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A time something good came out of a bad situation was when my parents were getting a divorce. My mom got together with her high school sweetheart and I wasn't too fond of him, but oh well. But then he started taking us to church because he was a Christian. I didn't really know who God was. When we stared going I made new friends and started having a better home. We didn't have as many fights with my dad and no more family problems.
We had a sort of peace come over us like we were safe. After that we went every Sunday and then eventually I got saved and two years later got baptized. I still like going, but most of all I have the best step daddy in the world. I thank God for him as he led us to our faith. I believe God put him in our bad situation to help us get to the good. When I was in elementary school I was bullied pretty much everyday and started hating myself more and more. The things they would say tore me apart. They told me I was insane because of my disabilities and that I wouldn't get anywhere in life because I was fat, stupid and slow. The criticism and hatred towards me has made me negative and hateful toward myself. When someone gives me a compliment I shoot it down. It's not that I WON'T believe it. It's that I CAN'T believe it. It's almost impossible. It's like a war inside my head. When someone tells me I look beautiful, it gets replaced by criticisms of the past. The battle wears me out, therefore I choose not to fight it. Unfortunately God waited 11 years to show me the reason for my struggle. The bullying went on from kindergarten to 10th grade. I started to wonder if God cared about me like the pastors said He did.
I mean, I would go home crying and asking God, "Why are you making me go through this? I'm just a kid. I don't want to deal with this!" It didn't seem like God loved me if He made me go through that, but everything happens for a reason. Unfortunately God waited 11 years to show me the reason for my struggle. As the years went by, I started to observe the people who were bullying me instead of just being the victim. I watched people who were being bullied and watched how they reacted. I learned to react differently than others would. Now I know not to be mean back, but to stand up for myself the correct way or walk away, if I'm able. I learned people don't bully others just to be mean. Life may be hard for them. They might not have a father or a mother to come home to. They might not get enough attention at home or have people who care, so they bully others to get attention. They also might have an abusive parent, therefore they are abusive toward others. Some people might want to act tough to let others know not to mess with them. One might have a popular family. In other words, one's parents might be popular and they expect their child to be popular. They bully to stay popular. Unfortunately some people do bully just to be mean. I have yet to figure out why, but I'll figure it out someday. So, the reason I think God allowed me to be put through all this bullying is so I can understand people better and learn safe ways to defend myself and others. Lindsey, Matt and Joseph discuss how God brought something good from seemingly terrible circumstances... a cutting habit, a brother's challenges, and the loss of a family member.
I was about 21/2 when I sustained a head injury to the back of my head. I was knocked unconscious with a very shallow heartbeat and breathing. I remained lifeless in my grandmother's arms. She prayed for life to remain in my little body and for the paramedics to arrive faster. I went in an ambulance and when I got to the hospital they did not know how serious my injury was. After multiple tests and a few days in the hospital, the results showed I would have some learning disabilities from my injury. I struggled in school. God has blessed me by sending me to True Light Shines so that I can get one-on-one teaching and more help than what public school could give me. The good that came out of my bad situation is that I am at True Light Shines. I still have the learning disability but I am trusting God to do His will in my life. |
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